I realized for myself that I for some reason have difficulties finishing trivial tasks. At first, it sounds stupid, but it’s actually a real problem me.

I think I am underwhelmed by most of the tasks I am doing, because once there is a task I haven’t solved yet in my head, it’s something I am researching for hours to find a solution.

A good example is, I made myself a task to look at FlutterFlow and see how I can design a little TicTacToe game. The backend was exciting to implement and to fix, so this is ready and built with event sourcing and cqrs. Now building the UI and playing around with the design feels to me like time waste. I know it’s not, but I feel like it is.

In my head I already know how it should work and I would like to give the work away, but this would hinder me to learn how to use FlutterFlow because I need to know if it is actually suitable the way I believe it is.

So I am stuck in a loop of not finishing tasks because I am underwhelmed by them. I genuinely also feel like I have anxiety of finishing something, because once it’s finished I don’t have a new task, so when I have an overload of tasks I am working extremely focused until I have 2-3 tasks left, and on them, I procrastinate.

So what are the solutions to this problem?

I have no Idea yet let’s try to Brainstorm:

• I should start with more habits maybe, yet this conflicts me at this stage to commit to something I am always pushing forward.

The habits I have is to do 25 pull-ups and to learn japanese every day. So far so good. It’s working, I am doing progress and I realised eating habits influences a lot in my mood and overall performance. As well as having a task I can collaborate with someone helps me immensely to finish tasks.

Maybe it’s just how I am wired at the moment, and I am still learning in how to deal with it.

So what are my current focus areas?

• Learning to be a better storyteller and communicator
• Learning the process how a bigger sales process for bigger software projects works
• Focusing on myself, my habits, my health and my overall well-being